Argh man. Everything seems to cramp together once more. I'm having pressure over art and Prelim is just tmr! OMG! I haven't start revising anything for my subjects. I do notes but nothing went into my head. I admit, I envy people who can study and memorise fast like Einstein and Evan. Well, just now in bus, Evan told me he's going to study with Eintstein. I'm a gonner alrdy man. They 2 sure gonna share techniques on memorising and stuff. I'm sure this time round Evan's gonna win me. Not that I'm not happy for him. But it's like he's winning everything from me. He's very sociable, his physically stronger than me.. etc... And now, he's winning my studies, he told me he wanted to win me. I mean, shit man, why the hell you want to compare with me. Even if he wants it he shouldn't told me. Its like: I WANT to beat you in your class position.
I felt everything is taken from me. This is the first time I'm sitting into an examination without any guidiance or preperation before hand. It's really pressurising to know that your going to lose out, to know that you lack behind, to know that you arn't going to join all your buddies through next year. Man I don't know what to do. I don't think praying is going to help. Because my hope seems to be lost somewhere in pitch dark.
I'll talk no more. Hoping I'm able to cope with the prelim and hopefully to pass my N levels. Pray hard for me too.
All the best to all sec 4.
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