Well.. Should put it in a way that I'm heartless / simply can't be bothered / turning into an emotionless man?
You decide..
See.. My mom had a talk with me last Saturday night.. She told me why she wasn't satisfied about her pay due to the deduction of CPF.. Somehow, she would lose 6% of her salary from now onwards..
She's planning on working a part time job.
I reminisced my sis told me this would happen in long terms if we don't work hard and have good qualifications.
It didn't really matter to me at that point of time.
And now, sitting here, listening to my mom's remorseful words just shows how much she's willing to suffer just to keep us under this roof.
I advice her in a harsh way as I'm not used to being dramatic and mushy with my family.
I told her: You're considered "lucky" to have this job. You can simply just do nothing for the whole day, enjoying the air-con with carpeted floors and wheeling chairs.. It's very convinient. Whereas, if she'd be going to people's house to pack or do chores for them, its much more tiring. (Which was what she was planning for her part-time job).
I DON'T WANT my mom to be serving other family, the feeling is just not right. It's so much similar as being a maid in other people's house. And I know kids nowadays are awefully rude. They could simply do things without even thinking. Notorious?
Besides, my mom's condition isn't really good. She'd get sick easily..
And i can assure that if she's sick, she'll be emitted to the hospital, no joke.. She is that "fragile". Now you see the reason why?
Now moving on.. I FUCKING LOST MY PERSONAL FILE!
Yea, didn't brag much about it in school.
BUT, I just found out that my N level cert was in it when my mom accused me of not wanting to reply her messages. Then she asked how did my search for the file went. And that's when all the commotion started.
SHIT up man..
On Sunday, I sat on the dining table, thinking, recalling so hard. Where did my diary went too? Then, I went to find my file to do assignments.
And I reallised that it was not here nor my bags.
I panicked. Its like, what could have gotten worst? Now that i have to make all the copies that i've lost. Just great.
And before I knew it, the next day. N LEVEL CERTIFICATE M.I.A
Fking dumb ass, why didn't you give your parents to keep it.
Now I know why filing is important.
I'm so troubled right now, frustrated.
You can say that i'm in a delimma.
And guess what, I'm suprised that I didn't cried. In the past, I used to cry about everything single thing that I don't have a solution to it. I'm wondering why's it so. "This would sound ridiculous, but I've tried crying in the bathroom before"... Epic fail.
What's with me. What have I done wrong to deserve all these? What could have possibly been worst than this? I don't wanna know. So much for lost stuff and broken heart. __ Peace out.
Labels: -Shit happens. But in this case, shit happens too many times in 2 days.