- To bring smiles on their mundane rountine life style.
- To get them to avert their attention to you.
- Must be impress so that they would clap for you.
Reminiscing about C and E:
It seems in class that E is doing very well, in track with everything.. Maybe even further..
Recalled that he told me he did something on purpose to demoralise people like me.. He said he would say the paper is easy after taking the test. So peeps like us would be so dumb and stupid to feel so pressured and into a what-to-do state.
Why? Why? Why..
Why am I talking like that.
Why am I gossiping behind his back?
Why can't I just leave him alone and ignore so that everything's gonna be alright?
Why I'm always end up sticking with him everytime when I know sometimes situations solved but was never reciprocal.
All these questions are just some questions that I'm unable to find the my ans to it.
E sed he doesn't like C.
Whilst C sed he doesn't like E..
Hmm... Confused once again.
Making use?
Trying hard to get close buddies for different purposes or what?
Humans arn't tools.
Maybe MY thinking is Naive.
Don't ask me why I think of E this way..
But I'm sure what happen during 4 years makes me think of him in a certain perspective.
It doesn't mean that his all bad.
I believe every peeps in e world have a good/ positive/ kind/ caring/ fun and loving side..
YES, he treats me good as a friend. But when I'm in a difficult position with him.. It's really unbearable.
I don't want to gossip anymore.. But I just want to tell someone NOT because of biasness towards E but its just like pressurised air in a Srynge that has been wanting to be released, but there's a thumb covering the hole. Its hard to comprehend, you know...
::Changed-Thats how it should be::
Alim told me that he don't want to hate anymore.. He found out himself that hatred is just a waste of time (qouted from Cynthia). Yea.. I find it true.. Very true..
I mean why live in a world full of hatred? You don't get any benefit from it.. Your just absorbing more negative thoughts and feelings and keep inside your heart. Its like sniffing glue.. Glue goes in but never comes out. Eventually, -dead-
We should live our lifes freely, want you want to do, don't let anyone stop you. For example, I've always been craving for Flashmob. Now, I'm doing plenty of it. Next, I'm aiming to learn dance, I wanna perform dance(Hip Hop) on stage. Just lack of a couch thats all. Then, in the mean while, I'll train my voice for singing.. Wanna sing like Chris Brown and Nickelback... Have 2 Vocals.
Call me crazy! I just love to do what I want to do..
No more hiding from outside world..
I'm not living my life with shyness.
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